Many people tell me, "wow you are so talented, your pictures are so good... but I do not understand why you do not have the exposure you deserve." I get this a lot, and I never know what to tell them because I have so many reasons why it doesn't bug me. Many artists out there are very underexposed and I try my best to help them the best I can to get more exposure. There is nothing wrong with getting a lot of exposure, but I couldn't care less if I do not get a DD or get published in magazines every month.
I have been published and it is great, and I appreciate all the watches and comments I get. I love my fans deeply, I love my fans more than I care about getting famous. I do not want art to be my full dedication, and I do not want it to become a job. I feel that if I allow it to become my job, I will become blinded by fame and money because that is what fame and money does to people. I do not want to create art for the money, I want to create art because I love making it, and I love sharing it with my fans and help them become inspired. I have refused many publications quite a lot, this is because many magazines do not want any of the pictures they are publishing posted anywhere until they tell me that I can post them. I refuse to be controlled by this society, particularly by publishers who do not even pay or credit you once you get published. I would rather post my work right away and share it with the people that matter to me; and my fans DO matter to me and have a place in my heart always.
I know how underground I am, and it is most likely because of the style of art I produce, but I will never change just so I can get more exposure by posting cliche work that has nothing to do with how I am feeling. Art to me is simply about creation, relating to others and expressing yourself.; creating something meaningful and not just creating art in spite of getting exposure. It is about growing, learning, making mistakes and taking the high road and not follow the herd of sheep. If I ever do become famous, it will be out of my own control if someday I post something that gives me lots of exposure; I will still dedicate my work to my fans and would most likely use the money to help other artists that are underground like setting up art galleries everywhere dedicated to underground artists.
Having a lot of exposure doesn't matter. It doesn't matter how many fans your have; you will always have that special talent of creating meaningful art and no one can take that away from you. Not having a lot of exposure doesn't mean that you suck. It doesn't mean that you are not good and that your art is super bad, it just means it is not your time yet and it might never be your time. What matter is if you love doing it, you have to love it in order to keep pushing yourself and to keep creating art despite the challenges a head. You have to create your own motivation; and my motivation is I have people to inspire and I get to inspire others by doing what I love the most.